never in my life

have i ever felt the way i do about her.

sometimes things just fall into place

she wakes up before me for work. shes kind enough to wiggle my foot and have me cover my face with the blanket before she turns on the light. she takes a minute to get dressed than turns the light off and sits next to me on the bed for a minute. she kisses me on the forehead and gets up to leave. she tells me she loves me and tell her i do back. she turns the fan back on for me and i tell her to be careful and she leaves for the day.

shes perfect. shes all ill ever need.

sometimes i wonder how people can be so fucking miserable with themselves.

things that rule.

1. New Job - Finally landed myself a job. Not just a job, but a job that i can potentially retire from. Im a warehouse manager/lead receiver for the united states coast guard. Im not IN the coast guard, just a civilian working for them. The money is good, the benefits are the great and the perks are awesome. I basically have all the benefits of being in the military without being owned by uncle sam. I really stepped in shit with this job and im extremely grateful. Turns out i was 1 of over 100 applicants for the job. I guess my experience in shipping and receiving payed off.

2. Winter is OVER. Springtime is here and bike season is right around the corner. The winter was extremely wet here so riding has been next to nothing and it sucked. My new job is 5 minutes away from my local trails, so ill be hitting them after work a LOT.

3. Allison, Inspector Gadget, Dr Claw, Penny Pendleton and Dio Holy Diver. The single greatest team of person and cats that i get to come home to daily.

31 Years

The winter has proven itself to be a nuisance this year, although luckily we havnt gotten any of the snow they are getting back home the past month or so. Today was pretty awesome though. I was getting dressed and looked at our thermometer and it said 57 degrees. I was pumped to say the least. packed the laundry in the car, rolled down the windows and tossed on some madball and got to driving. It felt pretty damn good to have fresh air blowing through the car as brother freddy preached through my speakers.

So yesterday i turned 31. It kinda hurt a little bit, haha. Becasue now im not longer 30 but IN my 30s. Im hoping 31 will be a fuckload better than 30. I turned 30 and my body began its Jihad against me. Fuck it though becasue im winning.

Thursday morning i have a BIG job interview that im nervous and stoked on at the same time. It would be nice to get it so that i may say that i have a CAREER for once. Ill be knocking on a lot of wood until than.

This weekend is Jake and I's big birthday bash at the scorpion bar at foxwoods. Should be a fucking blast. Nothing like watching all of your friends get fucking blasted in the name of your birthday.

Life is pretty damn good at the moment. I have all i want and need. 31, happy, loved.

"Look down on me, you will see a fool. Look up at me, you will see your Lord. Look straight at me, you will see yourself."
--Charles Manson

yeah

nevermind